Oh There You Are!

Feeling a bit bad that I haven't updated in awhile.  I know I've been a bit depressed about the hair loss and now, weight gain but I'm refocused. My hair was all silver for awhile but now has black growing back.  There are still big patches that are bald but there is noticeable growth. 

One of the things that makes me sad is at LEAST once a week, a beautiful lady will ask if I'm going through chemo because I usually have my head scarf on.  When I reply, "no," I then ask how they're doing.  These wonderful women share their chemo or cancer story with me.  Our exchange is usually short but I am so grateful for their bravery and the part that makes me sad is thinking about their struggles.  I am reminded that I am sick as well but I just don't have cancer. 

Today was my year check up with Dr. Ellner.  I have gained weight and am actually down this month from last month's eating binges.  I'm heading the right direction.  I thought before that I only wanted a healthy heart but I really do want to be thinner.  I will admit it now.  But now I have to work for it.  Dr. Ellner gave me a fill today and said my blood work looks good.  I need to be better about taking my vitamins and meds. 

This weekend is Slava for our family.  I am so grateful to be blessed with a wonderful family.  We are blessed to have one another.  Even though Father won't be at the house for the celebration, I hope we're able to have a kolach and zhito or at least a prayer to remember all our Vukotich family members.  I'm just so grateful that we'll all be together.

We had a wonderful dinner last night that Stefan made for his mom, Dan, and our visiting distant relative, Isha, who is visiting from Holland.  It was fun to take her birthday shopping for bath products.  This weekend we're with the Vukotich/Dabkovich side of the family and Sunday we're doing Iliana's belated birthday celebration for her little buddies, at Build-a-Bear.  It will be busy these next few days but so much fun.

After all is said and done, all we have is what we leave behind - full hearts and wonderful memories.  This lapband journey is going to buy me a few more years to be able to make more memories.