Still Feeling Like a Pumpkin

 

I am still feeling like a pumpkin.  I am being lazy.  I'm feeling discouraged that I'm not losing ANY weight and my eating habits are getting lazy so I am gaining - a pound or two one day then down one day but back up two the next.  I'm not feeling full AT ALL!  I was hoping to be down to 155 pounds by the time my hubby, Stefan, and I went to San Francisco this weekend for a family function but I failed me and I'm stuck at 161.  Yes yes, I'm still almost 40 pounds down but not quite.  True it is almost "that time" of the month but I can't be retaining just water.  I need to cut out the snacking. I need to be strong!

LapBandTalk.com is fun - I've joined the Halloween Scary October Challenge and my goal is to be down to 154 by October 29 and to help things along I joined another fun challenge on LapBandTalk.com, the 60 mile challenge for October.  I just have to complete 60 miles by October 31.  I joined the group late but I'm in right now at 15 miles.  I'm hoping to get a lot more miles in this week!

I accompanied my four-year old on her fieldtrip to the Pumpkin Patch this morning and I looked at all the skinny moms, I even looked at the skinny dads.  I wondered what they ate and if they were disciplined.  I looked at the pumpkins and all the shapes and sizes they came in and and I spotted a big round pumpkin in the patch and thought of me.  I am still feeling like a big round pumpkin - my food discipline needs to change but so does my attitude about myself.  

With 1.5 miles already in for the day, I'm going to try to get 2-3 more miles in tonight when it cools down.