What the FORK?

Mommy with crazy eye shadow, a fork and a bundled up kid. 11/06/11

Month 4 of the band.  I'm just not moving - well the scale is not moving and I'm not exercising like I should.  I see Dr. Ellner tomorrow and I'm nervous about what she'll say - basically it will be holding me accountable for my slacking!  Slacking in exercise and food will-power.  My fault, I know but don't we all feel a bit uncomfortable when we're confronted with our demons.  What I'm really hoping for is some help - a fill.  Will Dr. Ellner give it to me, or not? That is the question.

As a treat for myself, I am going to splurge and pay to attend a workout class at the YMCA (and even walk there - it's only a quarter of a mile). Or I may do a Kettle ball video - I can't use the excuse that I don't have the time because I do have the time to work and the time to snack.

I am falling into bad habits - snacking on carbs and Halloween candy.  The candy is leaving the house tomorrow!  I am grocery shopping after the weekend so I will pick more protein friendly snack items - for emergency snack attacks. But I have to regain control.  I sometimes get scared to weigh myself (I do it every other day) because I'm afraid I've gained a pound or two...or three.

My driver's license photo is a great reminder of where I was and where I never want to be again ( WORST DMV photo in history and my fat face fills up the box) . Seriously, check out the photo.  I should put this photo on my fridge or in the pantry to remind me of just how big I was.

It's time to refocus and start losing more weight.